It’s the last day of 2012, and I just wanted to say, it’s been a pretty remarkable year. This time last year I was 333lbs, in constant chronic pain from my undiagnosed diabetes, generally miserable, and in the deepest depression I’ve ever endured. I simply did not want to go on.
Now, I’m 85lbs lighter, stronger, healthier, happier, wiser, and looking forward to each day as it comes.
I am thankful to have been able to rely so fully on the people closest to me during a very transformative and somewhat tumultuous period in my life.
My mom — she is rarely mentioned in my blog, but she has made everything possible for me this year (and for many years). She has provided me with the opportunity to focus solely on my health by giving me much-needed financial support during this period, as well as prior to my diabetes diagnosis, when I was so depressed and physically debilitated that I could not function in the real world. She’ll never read this, but I just wanted the world to know how much I appreciate all she has done for me. I hope this year will permit me to return that favor, financially speaking.
My brother Jason — thank you for always being interested in how I’m doing, and for letting me in on what goes on in your life, despite the vast physical distance. You have been a great support to me, and you say exactly the kinds of encouraging words that I have needed to hear. I hope the changes you are making in your own life right now make you the happiest yet. I hope to see you soon. (“like he’s some kinda hotshot!”)
Dawn — thank you for enduring my endless babbling about weight loss, permitting me to brag about my accomplishments, and for tolerating my sometimes asshole behavior. You’re like a sister. Please don’t ever give up on me.
Last but not least — Dan. God, what can I say? I couldn’t get through any of this without you. Your patience, understanding, and steadying force have been the very backbone of my successes this year. Your constant unconditional love is unlike anything I’ve ever experienced, and I am so fortunate to know what that kind of love feels like.
Everyone that has ever given me support, a “like”, a suggestion, a pat on the back — thank you. Knowing that I have your support goes a long way towards fueling my determination and confidence. Two things I’ve never had in great abundance. Until now.
I’m making a commitment to myself right now to lose another 70lbs. It’s alright if it doesn’t happen within this coming year. I’ve got no timeline in mind. Just ultimately, 70lbs. I’m also committing to taking and posting another progress photo after my next 25lb loss. Again, no time-frame constraints — when it happens, it happens.
Happy New Year, everyone!